YOU ARE STRESSING TOO MUCH ON MUSIC!

Even the cabby uncle knows better than me! what the shit am I doing now!

FK! FK! FK!

I shall stop scolding myself a bit getting crazy already somehow out of hand. Practice practice and more practice. Scared, vibrating lips, lousy slide techniques, lousy tongue, lousy lip slurs, lousy puffing low notes, lousy watever!

Piano also, lack of practice 1 exam piece also haven completed yet! sian!

ok go do my project alr

Anyway, I look so stupid saying this. Whatever it is.

Tmr will be the day I will crack my brains, plus I need to do my tutorial. :(

Anyway studying of chords and triads was very challenging. But I am loving it! hahas..

Monday school and band as usual but was kind of boring for me maybe I am not in the mood to practice thats why. Too much already cause I have been practicing the whole of monday morning, recording my sound, listening to it ,correcting my mistakes etc. One thing about school is that I have not been listening to any tutorial or lecture, my body is there but my mind and soul was somehow not there.

Tuesday, went to see brass camber concert in YST . We nearly got lost in NUS, but we went there on time. Indeed it was an eye opener cause there was a very unique combination of music (harps, piano and brass choir) cool! for the first time I am see it. Anyway I wish something could get me to be motivated, to train my air and tonguing. My biggest weakness.

Wednesday, I thought I could not complete keying in the sinfonique forms, but I did it with a little help from vivien she come to my house to slacked. After which I went tpy to pass my friend something and went to have a drink in simon cause he is slacking for his band practice later. What I can talk to him is all band stuff! So blah blah blah ! until I damn lazy to head for band practice since it is sectional, but once I touch the trombone yesterday I suddenly did some intensive practicing for nothing. Maybe is because of the girl trombonist I saw in YST!

:)

I think I took 2 hrs to do that seriously making my eyes sore!

I am not looking forward to today school, somehow it does not push me to be motivated or what-so-ever. However, I met Eleanor today! she is really a sweet girl, she help me put cream on my rope burn wound. She really make my day! My wound had dry up but I still feel the pain. Argh!

Anyway I am thinking way too much today, during school, during band, during my journey home. I also don know what I am thinking honestly. My mind seems to be flooded suddenly.

I wanted to type more but I am tired I shall sleep!

I want to go to the masterclass tmr! :(

I am finally back from Outward Bound Singapore!

4 days customize leadership course (Youth)

I was slightly drunk the night before I go OBS with like 2 glasses of martell my whole body feel hot, cause it was SY birthday so everybody was high! Anyway I leave early for that night and I heard that most of them were drunk and drama happens. SY was really a happy little girl that night even though she turns 18!

Day 1-High Element

Went to school in the early morning and seem really lost, cause I don know most of the people until I saw one from the same course as me so I made friends with her friends hahas. On the bus I sat with the SA officer that was following us, so he talk to me, in the end he really remember me.

Our first activity was to jump off from the boat and swim to the shore, totally awesome. I seriously cannot wait to jump down that stupid boat. But in the end I was the last 7 people to go down cause I am helping my friends that are non-swimmer. But helping them was fun too cause we are like making so much noise while swimming to shore.

Then the whole day was my favorite activity that I am look forward to HIGH ELEMENTS! but I was disappointed cause it was somehow not challenging enough and the instructor wants me to climb the wooden rod one which required 2 person actually, but because the guy don want my help in the end I don care him and climb myself and I made it to the top alone hahas. The guy damn sad cause he lose to me. But I am also sad that day, I shed abit of tears actually cause of that instructor kept asking me to climb when I am resting from my extreme rope burn. Damn pain lah but she insisted for me to climb, I am like holding the pain behide.I will definitely climb cause I wish to climb so much but she ask me at the wrong time. I hate dropping tears. ah! forget it ! I really feel like killing myself at that moment! I was like very emo the whole day.

Day 2-Sea Expedition

Practically my rope burn wound got worst and the whole day it was soaking with sea water=salt water. We kayak for 6 hours that day, we have to cross 3 obstacles ,the mud bank one was awesome cause I nearly fall off , but struggle up. After all the kayaking and seriously lots of interesting thing that happen on the way to our tent site, we were to jump into a query of cleaner water, like swimming pool which was even more awesome hahas.We can clean ourself up there . So we camp outside that night and during the night there was music coming from Johor but sad that it was not korean music. Anyway my wound hurts like shit that night plus suffer from body ache.

Day 3-Land Expedition

We walk for 7 hours carrying those heavy bag packs. I seriously die!! the bag is damn heavy, heavier then the trombone! argh!! but still struggle though.But I was quiet the day actually cause I am damn shagged and they reject my idea without listening that get me so angry.

anyway I am happy it is completed.

Day 4- Home sweet home

we did a trust dive that day, we have to shout out our goals and jump! at first I was somehow do not wish to say it but after that I still say it. So hopefully I can meet my goal!! :)